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I don't like Krispy Kremes.  Well, I'll tell you why.  They use too much sugar.  I don't like how they glaze the entire doughnut.  I prefer doughnuts glazed only on one side, otherwise, it's overkill.  Krispy Kreme is so red light district.  It's like Versace perfume.  It's just a cheap whore trying to get your attention.  There's no subtlety to it.

On that note, I'm joining Weight Watchers, officially, today.  143 lbs.  I just weighed myself, naked, without my watch or a hair elastic.  I'm 5' 5".  I should weigh 125.  I felt my best at 123, actually, but save it if you're going to go off on numbers.  I am not a Nazi about them.  I am a psycho, though, when it comes to the plain, hard-boiled fact, that my fat jeans are now way too tight.

I tried joining yesterday in earnest.  I looked at google maps, was certain I knew where I was going.  No.  I got lost and ended up at the wrong Target shopping center.  The meeting began at 12:15.  By the time I arrived at the correct location, it was 1:32.  Now what?  There was another meeting at the same spot at 5:30, but what would I do until then?  I'd go to Starbucks and write, use my t-mobile account.  I'd get things done.

Starbucks was actually closed for renovations.  Closed!  I've never heard of such a thing.  The only way I was able to find it in the first place was with the help of my un-trusty GPS system.  The Suitor recently changed the voice, so now it says, "recalculating" in a British accent.  "I'm turning left in a spot, love," I repeat aloud to the GPS Brit lady.  My car now sounds like a snob, which I kind of like.  What I didn't like was how my day was going.  Screw it.

I fiddled with my trusty GPS and punched in a new destination.  In lieu of Weight Watchers, I hit up a place that my new friend Wendy introduced me to that bakes, fresh, the best damn snickerdoodle I've ever had.  Tiffany's Treats.   Subtle.  Not Tiff's Trix.  I had to wait 30 minutes while they baked us a fresh dozen.  Yes, us.  I was bringing them home for The Suitor.  He'd mentioned earlier in the day how he was jonesing for a chocolate chip cookie.  So I'd bring home more than one.  We could freeze the rest, I was certain.  Yuh, like that ever happens.  Having to wait a half hour for the cookies meant I knew what I was doing.  This wasn't some impulsive eating.  It was absolutely pre-meditated.  The problem is, while I was waiting, I actually thought about driving through McDonalds.  Just a small cheeseburger, I thought.  No fries or anything.  No.  Bad girl.  Instead I sat in my car and wrote about fat camp for book 2.  Then on the half hour, I collected a warm white bakery box tied with a yellow ribbon.  Screw it.

I untied the ribbon, ate a few cookies before I arrived home, then repacked the box as if I'd never been there.  Zipped my fly, tucked in my shirt.  Stephanie hasn't been here.  The Suitor's eyes lit up when he saw I was carrying the box.
"I've got a treat, honey belle."
"Oh, it's for Linus?"
"No, baby, it's for you."
"Did you have any?"
"Uh, yeah.  Royal taster, here."
"And you re-did the bow?"
"Anything for you." 

It was subtle, not very red light.  And the night was delicious.  So now, I'm signing up for Weight Watchers online to be my anti-pimp. 

June 22, 2006 in food porn | Permalink

Comments

completely agree with you about the Kremes - they do use way too much sugar, although here in the UK, they only glaze one side of the donut - weird.

Posted by: s | Jun 22, 2006 7:27:02 AM

Good for you!

I have only ever started a diet on Sunday. Sundays feel like new starts to me.

I prefer Ken's voice on the GPS.

Posted by: Sallie | Jun 22, 2006 7:49:18 AM

stephanie - just face it already. you have 'FP' ..fat potential. the gene that causes one to always have the potential at any given moment to be overweight. you've been blessed w. the good genes to cook, write, create, but missed out the day they handed out the skinny genes. And, now that you live in Austin, where you get in your car and go everywhere (as opposed to the 'on-foot' lifestyle of NYC, the pounds will be sure to come. Then, once you get pregnant (and add on about 50 lbs), my guess is it won't come off since working out at staying active are just not your things like writing, cooking, and eating are.
but who cares ,..you have a man who loves you for who you are, and seems to accepted your rotund existence.
no worries mate.

Posted by: jay | Jun 22, 2006 8:02:39 AM

I've only had one Krispy Kreme since high school.....mainly because of the muffin top. But partly because I go into a sugar coma if I so much as get a whiff of one.

Posted by: Buffy | Jun 22, 2006 8:37:46 AM

It's just the winter/spring weight coming off! And there is nothing more depressing than the fat jeans that are suddenly too tight. I tend to try to blame it on the "they were just washed" excuse. But that only goes so far as the numbers creep up.

And now... to the gym.

Posted by: Kellie | Jun 22, 2006 8:40:35 AM

i'm 5'6" and stuck at 230 lb. just sayin'. i need to get back to the gym though. oh, what to do at the plateau? it sucks.

Posted by: anon | Jun 22, 2006 8:46:43 AM

Steph, did you know you can get a Mr. "T" GPS voice? It's hilarious..."Turn left fool!" If you could have a famous person's or character's voice, who would you have? My fiance says he'd have Jackie Stewart; I think I'd have Gilbert Godfrey for the shock value.

BTW, 143 lbs. is still within the "normal" range for your height. Easier said. I believe that when we eat exactly what we want, prepared exactly how we want it, we ultimately make the best decisions. Stay away from the numbers, be healthy, be active, and be grateful. You'll be much happier, trust me.

Posted by: upklhd | Jun 22, 2006 8:54:01 AM

I was just visiting my parents in the midwest over the weekend and got suckered into infomercials. Before I knew it I was purchasing six Winser Pilates DVD's--Daisy Fuentes told me to. As I wait for their arrival I am binging on Girl Scout cookies, creamy pasta dishes and lots and lots of wine. Grace period.

Posted by: Lynn | Jun 22, 2006 9:09:12 AM

Not getting you to Weight Watchers but delivering you to Tiffany's? I think your GPS Brit lady is an enabler.

Posted by: Barbara E. | Jun 22, 2006 9:14:42 AM

The last time I joined Weight Watchers it was sandwiched in between Dunkin' Donuts and Bagel Cafe. I scaled while salivating. By the time Lucille began the meeting I pretended to scribble notes. Points. Portions. 'What brought you here this morning?' She asked again. 'Anyone? Anyone?' Ferris Bueller. Ben Stein. Up went my right hand.
'Yes?' 'Who wants egg and cheese on an English Muffin? Dunkin'Donuts is next door. So is Bagel Cafe. Jonny's Pizza is to the left of Suk Lo Fat across this very mall. Anyone? Anyone?' Lucille stood alone.

Posted by: Lori | Jun 22, 2006 9:22:25 AM

This story reminds me of my friend who was so distraught after her initial weigh-in at WW that she went to 7-11, bought a shitload of beef jerkey and powdered dougnuts, and binged right there in the parking lot. Oh, and she washed it all down with a bottle of Yoo-Hoo.

Posted by: Dale | Jun 22, 2006 9:23:26 AM

@Jay: umm, "mate", I don't really think that the adjective "rotund" applies to Stephanie!

Posted by: Yvonne | Jun 22, 2006 9:24:32 AM

I'm near the Krispy Kreme on 3rd Avenue, near 86th Street. My bank is nearby, other stores I quasi-frequent, like Best Buy and Banana Republic, are nearby. I have gone into Krispy Kreme once -- to buy a 20 oz Diet Coke.

On a hockey trip upstate years ago, we stopped into a Krispy Kreme somewhere in Rochester, Ithaca or some other snowy stopover that has more snow-plows than humans. I had one -- their version of Dunkin' Donuts' Boston Creme -- and despite being exhausted from the entire day traveling plus the game we'd just won, I felt the post-Krispy Kreme sugar rush.

That was, and is, the last time I'll get another of their handheld, super-portable sugar-high.

Good luck with WW -- you'll understand if I fail to mention we'll all tie a yellow ribbon in a show of pro-Stephanie solidarity, of course...

Posted by: BoogieNY | Jun 22, 2006 9:24:50 AM

Sounds like your GPS was trust-worthy...not un-trust-worthy. Also...I like the Australian English voice...

Posted by: NCTRNL | Jun 22, 2006 9:26:28 AM

This post just made me incredibly sad. I'm 5'5 and a half and my Goal Weight is 140 or even 150, which is a loong way for me to go. But I'll be in my WW meeting tonight, trying to prepare for the weekend.
Good Luck!

Posted by: CeCe | Jun 22, 2006 9:28:37 AM

The only way Krispy Kreemes are any good is if they are hot. Even then the sugar and grease are overkill.

Posted by: Kirsten | Jun 22, 2006 9:31:13 AM

You throw around the word "Nazi" a lot. It's lazy, and borderline offensive. You're a good writer...come up with a better word. (Nanny, drill sergeant, enforcer, etc.)

I know "Seinfeld" popularized the term "soup Nazi" and it's grown to mean anyone who's a taskmaster about anything, but using it so much - second time in a week, I think - takes the true power away. You know who's a real Nazi? A Nazi. This world is not free of bigotry, racism, and anti-Semitism.

Using words like Nazi, retarded, or gay out of context seems a little lazy for someone who is otherwise as creative as you are.

Posted by: b | Jun 22, 2006 9:33:09 AM

Don't go to the WW meetings. They are so depressing and don't help at all. The best thing to do is WW on-line. It's accurate and efficient. If you have questions, there are wonderful message boards. Good luck! I'm doing it too...

Posted by: Julia | Jun 22, 2006 9:44:14 AM

I'm with Yvonne. 'Rotund' to describe Stephanie? Geez! Stephanie, good luck with it. What I find the most commendable is your quest for constant self-improvement. It is more than a number on a scale, it's you, knowing when you feel your best and how to get there. 145, 200, 123..YOU know what is best for you. Kudos. I am somewhat envious though, mmmm, snickerdoodle!

Krispy Kreme=Yuck.

Posted by: DeannaBanana | Jun 22, 2006 9:50:17 AM

i believe this is the only place i will stay more than 5 seconds reading about weight watchers...

i need to put on weight!!!!!!!

Posted by: treespotter | Jun 22, 2006 9:51:55 AM

Don't listen to Jay. There might be some truth to the fat gene for some people, but only if your parents were substantially fat. And at 143, you're not exactly toppling over. Anyway, good luck with the program, and keep us apprised of your progress.

Posted by: JoeyB | Jun 22, 2006 9:59:44 AM

I feel your angst and wish you lots of will power.
My weight (and its fluctuation) is the bane of my existence. I've been 93 pounds and I've been 137 - and everywhere in between.
Sigh.

Posted by: babysk | Jun 22, 2006 10:06:13 AM

Someone told me that taking a swig of Apple Cider Vinegar after you eat sweets neutralizes the offending calories.

Posted by: cassandra | Jun 22, 2006 10:10:06 AM

Krispy Kremes are a veritable glycemic orgasm. I LOVE THEM! I think I can get past the mean things you said about them, but it's going to take some time.

I had to smile at your conversation with the Suitor. He knows you well. And that's sweeter than any Krispy Kreme.

Posted by: Liz | Jun 22, 2006 10:21:30 AM

Maybe you should join Jenny Craig instead. They were just recently bought out by Nestle. I'm sure they could incorporate this into one of their diets and you could eat lots of chocolate and not feel guilty about it. This must be a womans dream come true. If so, let me know so I can get a job at J.C.

Posted by: Scott | Jun 22, 2006 10:22:47 AM

Stephanie, I am 5'2" and am 125, does that mean I have to be 110? when i weighed 110 in college i was diagnosed with anorexia. i guess the reason that numbers don't count to me as that i have a ton of muscle tone, thanks to push ups (not the girl kind) and sit ups over the years. the only numbers to focus on is size 2, 4, 6, or 8 or whatever you feel necessary and the percentage of fat which keeps me more on track. you should get it measured, it should be between 18 and 22%. i'm just sayin', but they're right above, you have a man that loves you, and you're beautiful! ~Jodi

Posted by: jodi | Jun 22, 2006 10:25:34 AM

Last week on Paula Deen's show, she made a bread pudding out of Krispy Kreme's, can you imagine? I had a sugar high and gained several pounds just looking at it!

Posted by: pnutz | Jun 22, 2006 10:53:09 AM

When I realized I was looking much more like a post-partum Britney than a post-partum Denise, I got my butt to the YMCA. (Oh, how I wish there was a swanky Equinox gym in my neighborhood, but whatevs.) It's such a slow process, but I'm getting there. Good luck!

Posted by: lisa | Jun 22, 2006 11:18:13 AM

With you on the Krispy Kremes. Too sweet. Good luck with the Weight Watchers. I too struggle with my love of food versus my desire to be thin. Food is winning by a long shot, though I'm a few inches shorter than you and way heavier. Maybe I need to go to Fat Camp. I've often wondered how you handle your enjoyment of such incredible food with maintaining your weight. Keep us posted on the WW thing. I've tried it and had moderate success, but apparently I don't have the will to stick with something long enough to change my lifestyle. Hope you have far better luck than I.

Posted by: Andrea | Jun 22, 2006 11:25:56 AM

I don't like Krispy Kreme's either, they make my teeth feel greasy.

And I feel you on the WW. As a matter of fact, looking back over your weight related posts, our weight has followed the same pattern over the past year or so. I'm on the high end of my yoyo and MUST get back into the skinny clothes.

Posted by: Emily | Jun 22, 2006 11:33:53 AM

what would life be if we didn't indulge in the sweet stuff every once in a while?

Posted by: amanda | Jun 22, 2006 11:50:42 AM

Reading this around lunchtime was bad...BAD!

Posted by: Scarlet | Jun 22, 2006 11:52:00 AM

Am not a fan of the Krispy Kremes, myself. I've only had one, and it was too sweet.

Actually, I've only had one bite of one.

Far too sweet.

Posted by: A | Jun 22, 2006 12:16:29 PM

Diet and weight advice from strangers - classic. Don't listen to anybody except your own body. Good luck with WW, make it work for you. I am addicted to cheese and always make it fit into my weekly/daily points.

Posted by: jackson | Jun 22, 2006 12:20:52 PM

Do writing exercises count?

Posted by: Dayna | Jun 22, 2006 12:25:02 PM

At 5'5", you are within the normal range. BMI overweight starts at 150 for this height. I'm just saying.

Posted by: memcinto | Jun 22, 2006 12:39:12 PM

Vinyasa yoga. Try it. Changed my body forever and it feels (almost) better than sex.

Posted by: jes | Jun 22, 2006 12:42:49 PM

I worked on a campaign once where every morning they would bring boxes of hot, sticky Krispy Kremes. I got to where I hated the sight of a box.

Posted by: Serena | Jun 22, 2006 12:44:06 PM

Krispy Kreme - ick. People are obsessive about them in these parts and I just don't see (taste) the attraction!
Jay has been appropriately bashed. But 143 = rotund, gimme a break. 5’4” here and I have weighed 115 – 230 .. it’s all about health and comfort. I wasn’t healthy at either extreme … somewhere in the middle, preferably when I don’t have to shop in the *big lady* stores.
But you know all this…It sounds like you just want to be healthy and comfortable. You can do it. Eating *fresh*foods always seems to do the trick for me …

Posted by: mamakraft | Jun 22, 2006 12:50:16 PM

Stephanie...

First time poster, long time reader. Thanks for the great post, and good luck with the scale. I totally know where you're coming from- I binge on Lindt chocolates, caramel cow tails and my colleague's mint milanos daily. It's so hard not to.

But I always start my day with you, so thank you.
Schmicky

Posted by: Schmicky | Jun 22, 2006 1:02:01 PM

Krispy Kreme now reminds me of an episode of "Sex and the City". Miranda meets a man at a WW meeting. They end up sharing a donut, and the rest - well, if you've seen it you know that's not all they share!

Ick!

Posted by: Erin | Jun 22, 2006 1:09:52 PM

Hi, from a former North Shore girl (now in SF). I never liked the KKs - I always have, and always will be, loyal to DDs. Their hot chocolate is worlds better than Starbucks.

Good thing for my waistline that there ARE no Dunkin' Donuts in SF.

Posted by: Green | Jun 22, 2006 1:25:06 PM

Please get help. Your food obsession is scary. Disturbing. I don't think WW will do it, sorry to say. I'm not worried about your weight, it's more a matter of mental health.

Posted by: jg | Jun 22, 2006 1:26:12 PM

Krispy Kreme in New York City is no good. It's the water. The water in NYC is good for bagels - not doughnuts. You have to have a glazed KK in the south - Winston-Salem, NC the headquarters or Atlanta, Ga (only at the Ponce de Leon location though). I know - I've tried them in all three places. Never too sweet. And as for the detour before WW - hysterical. Don't do the online - go to the meetings - just remember - no chinese or mexican the day before weigh-in. I'll let the people at your meetings tell you why.

Posted by: Jody | Jun 22, 2006 1:27:45 PM

I don't know if this helps at all, but I saw you at your reading not that long ago, before you left for Austin. I thought that you looked really nice, with nothing to worry about in the weight department. So, from both a medical and an aesthetic perspective, if you keep up your healthy lifestyle and even enjoy an occasional snickerdoodle, you should do just fabulously.

Posted by: M.D. | Jun 22, 2006 1:35:44 PM

Hey, good luck with your journey with Weight Watcher’s. They’re the safest most effective company that really focuses on healthy eating. I went on it before and lost a considerable amount of weight. Of course- gained it back after not going to the meetings. The meetings are so important to go to. It makes you stick to the plan because you don’t want to say, “Ugh I gained 2 pounds this week!” That was my motivation.

“How much did you lose Deb?”
“Ugh….zero.”

Embarrassing. My problem is my alcohol consumption. I love my beer and wine. What does it say about alcohol? I remember they said you could have like ONE light beer with your dinner or one glass of ‘white’ wine. Ugh. It’s hard dieting—but for your height, 143 doesn’t sound bad Steph. Plus, I like my women with a little meat on their bones! You probably look fantastic—and also remember that muscle weighs SO much more than fat. Everyone carries themselves differently. From what I have seen of you---you’re beautiful.

Posted by: Deb | Jun 22, 2006 1:51:33 PM

Dunkin Donuts are so much better.

One of the reasons I moved from NYC to Austin is to loose weight; the thought being that I'd drink less, go to dinner less and be able to escape my shitty job and pull out of my depression.

The first year (last year) I was able to drop 15 lbs, got into Ashtanga yoga (totally changed my body), cardio, weight and even dropped the depression... until I went back into the cube. Now I'm right up to where I was. Now I'm going under the knife and I might just have to drop the corporate gig. Maybe I'll try the WW thing as it sounds like the best plan out there. I hate that you are battling this, but it is nice knowing that I'm not the only one.

Posted by: Christine | Jun 22, 2006 2:36:27 PM

I lost 40 lbs on WW in three months. It was so easy ... but now I realize that it was easy because I was nursing! After stopping the meetings, I gained 20 back. Rejoined a few months ago and have only lost 5 pounds!!! It's MUCH harder for me this time. But it does work. You look great, but you will be happier at 125. My goal was 148 ... at 5'6. And I look VERY skinny at that weight.

Posted by: Marcy | Jun 22, 2006 3:30:27 PM

I just rejoined WW Online, too, and I think it's super helpful. Way to go, Stephanie!

Posted by: Sarah | Jun 22, 2006 3:35:33 PM

I recently had a run in with KK and they made me ridiculously ill from all the sugar. Which is why I pledged my allegiance to Dunkin Donuts.

Good luck with the WW.

Posted by: Heather B | Jun 22, 2006 4:06:16 PM

I did WW about 15 years ago and have kept it off (50 lbs). It is, by far, the most realistic diet that's easy to integrate into your life. The first week is the hardest, as I'm sure you know. Use moderation but make time for your love and appreciation of food. Good luck.

Posted by: LO | Jun 22, 2006 4:07:12 PM

I just re-joined WW three weeks ago; so far it's harder than it was last time I did it, I've only lost two pounds. The summer complicates things, all of those outdoor drinking events and dinners out with friends. Not to mention vacations.

I, too, gauge my weight by my jeans - much more reliable (and less chance to become psycho) than with a scale. When I noticed my skinny jeans looked obscene on me and my fat jeans were bordering on snug, that was it! WW part deux.

Posted by: anise | Jun 22, 2006 4:08:49 PM

My favorite part of this post was--

"I've got a treat, honey belle."
"Oh, it's for Linus?"
"No, baby, it's for you."

I can't tell you how often that happens at my house!

"I love you so much!"
"Thanks, hon...wait,you were talking to Mattie (our dog)weren't you?"

Posted by: EK | Jun 22, 2006 4:32:40 PM

Hey Stephanie,

I just read your story in Elle Magazine! You are the 'most brutally honest' person I've ever known! From being rejected, pregnancy, abortion, miscarriage, divorce? What haven't you been thru?

Your courage and how you say stuff so 'raw'makes me admire you the most. You are now my hero and heroine!

Sincerely,
Judith

Posted by: Judith | Jun 22, 2006 6:33:30 PM

1) Portion control. Get a digital scale. One the food labels, look at the serving sizes. Weigh-out that much food, and eat just that. For example, if the serving size for pasta is 2oz, put 2oz on the scale. Meat: 4oz. Etc. Stop eating out as much. Limit yourself to one per week for dinner, and once for lunch. That's it.

2) Exercise.

All weight watchers is, is a brand of food. Until you learn this, you might as well install a money drain in your ktichen.

Posted by: erich | Jun 22, 2006 6:35:16 PM

Aaaah-roma! Homemade oatmeal, chocolate pudding, fresh salmon and vegetables, melted vanilla yogurt, Innova dog treats, broiled garlic Empire chicken, pasta with asparagus and olive oil, Fairway produce, frozen oatmeal cookies, Fuji apples and a bucket on the side, please.

Posted by: TessdU | Jun 22, 2006 7:29:16 PM

Steph...Congrats on joining WW. I am going to use your comittment to re-up my comittment. I have lost track of what I am eating, and it is a great way to know what goes in your body, and what you do to get rid of it by excercising. Thanks for being so honest about your journey. I am on that road with you!

Posted by: Colleen | Jun 22, 2006 7:59:33 PM

Ok, it's official...I miss Dunkin' Doughnuts!!! Just the glazed ones...uh, my favorite. And the coffee. I could beat you!!! SLUT!

In college, there was this old fashioned retro Krispy Kreme that had the big neon sign lit up when the doughnuts were hot. I wasn't a fan until the night that my little runt of a friend (Sarah) made me eat one. The hot doughnut melted (literally)in my mouth. And the suger just slid the ball of dough down...uh, so good. Not quite DD though.

OOOhh, imagine a hot dunkin' d's glazed one? Uh, I am going to kill you Stephanie! All night I am going to be craving fucking doughnuts! Nice, instead of getting me to join WW with you, you are making me crave fried dough washed in layers of sugar!!! GGggrrrrr...

Yeah, and I just ate a South Beach diet bar...not quite a real meal. Great. D-E-D, dead!!!

Posted by: Lea | Jun 22, 2006 8:55:55 PM

Oh, and you are not officially fat until you have FUPA!!! Use this one in your book...Fat Upper Pelvic/Pubic Area! Yes, where that region is actually a roll...of fur. Ew. You love me.

Posted by: Lea | Jun 22, 2006 8:57:46 PM

Ccccchhhhhhhhhhh

Posted by: Lea | Jun 22, 2006 8:58:45 PM

I'm not a big fan of KK either, but here's something my sister did. She ordered a dozen with no glaze. They made them fresh and her family got to watch the donuts go thru the baking process. It took 20 minutes and they served the glaze on the side for measured dipping.

Posted by: Plantation | Jun 22, 2006 9:02:25 PM

When I moved to Austin last May I had the hardest time keeping weight off because there were so many new restaurants and eateries to try! Ribs! Steak! Enchiladas! Breakfast tacos! Mexican Martinis with chips salsa and guacamole for happy hour! Cooking delicious meals in my new apartment for my boyfriend... you name it. I often tell myself that it's for a "special occasion" or that I just want to try it and will never go back... but there is a LOT of eating to do here in Austin, and a lot of drinking! One hell of a summer later and YIKES. Back on the diet plan.
The good news is that there is another side to Austin- the health-nut side. There are many grocery stores and restaurants that do cater towards healthier living and vegetarian (even if you're not) meals. And best of all- the weather. There aren't as many rainy days (although I along with you find comfort and sexual energy in the rain) which means plenty of opportunities to check out the hike and bike trails, walk along Town Lake, get in a game of tennis, or swim a few laps in the pool after writing.
You can do it; keep your head up.

Posted by: Jen | Jun 22, 2006 10:16:05 PM

For Lea--FUPA! We call it a GUNT because it's located exactly in the middle of the gut and the, well, you know. And men have GOCKS. Seriously, these are branded family words now.

Stephanie--Don't do WW online. You have to go to the meetings, weigh in weekly and WRITE EVERYTHING DOWN THAT YOU PUT IN YOUR MOUTH. For instance, I had an Oreo cookie today, and wrote down 1.5 points. Also exercise and you can gain food points. I've been a lifetime member for like 3.5 years and was even a success story a couple years ago. They are running my success story on the web-newsletter next week. Last week, I wrote everything down, and weighed in 3.8 pounds less than the week before!

If you want to know of any points in practically any food for WW, check out Dottie's Weight Loss Zone website--she's got practically EVERY restaurant in there (chains, mostly), but if you know where you are going out, planning what you will eat makes it easier to stay within your points. Just google Dottie Weight Loss and her site should pop up.

Good luck, and it's really better to go to the meetings; besides, once you're there, you'll be like, "Hey, I am so not fat!"

Posted by: Manic Mom | Jun 22, 2006 11:38:34 PM

Here's the link to Dottie's site for all you Weight Watchers--

http://www.hungry-girl.com/externalink.php?frameurl=http://www.dwlz.com/restaurants.html

And I once got sick from eating 3-1/2 cream filled KK. And I live WALKING DISTANCE from a KK right now, but never eat them.

Posted by: Manic Mom | Jun 22, 2006 11:41:40 PM

Hi Stephanie -- gosh, and here I'm hoping that when I get the courage to go out and buy a scale, that I'll be somewhere in the 143 range (I'm 5'4"). Last time I weighed myself, about 8 months ago, I was at 135, but I know I've gained a bunch since then. It's hard to tell, though, and when I look in the mirror, I never see what I actually look like -- I can't tell, don't see myself neutrally. Anyway, weight is always such a hard thing to deal with, so personal, and what to some is a disgrace, to others is a relief...

Posted by: rr | Jun 23, 2006 1:51:34 AM

Um you are not fat and saying you are fat at 143 lbs makes those of us who weigh more than that feel like fat cows.Some of us are handicapped or on medications and will never be able to lose the weight. Way to alienate your audience.

Posted by: kim | Jun 23, 2006 2:32:19 AM

Good luck with Weight-Watchers, Stephanie. I probably don't have to tell YOU this, but be careful of the scales. They're really evil. Especially when you're retaining water. (I can bloat up four of FIVE pounds if I've had something salty.) Only get weighed when you KNOW you're feeling and looking skinny. Otherwise, it can be discouraging if the scales don't reflect your hard work.

Posted by: Jeff Funk | Jun 23, 2006 3:41:18 AM

You can always ask the people at Krispy Kreme to take the doughnut off the line before it goes under the glazer. They are amazing without the glaze.

Posted by: bimble | Jun 23, 2006 7:09:12 AM

I've reread this and reread this and I can't find where Stepahnie says she is fat, just where she says that she feels better at a lower weight. I don't think anyone should be alienated by that.

http://www.besthealth.com/Health+Calculators/ has great body calculators. If you have a medium bone frame, they peg your desireable range at 5'5" as between 121 and 135 lbs (or 55-61 kilos).

So, not that you need their sayso, but your goal appears healthy, and that's really the most important thing.

Posted by: Sallie | Jun 23, 2006 8:39:45 AM

I don't know very much about WW, but I would recommend the South Beach Diet with alterations to fit your lifestyle. I chose to add fruit to the first 2 weeks which is the most strict of the phases. I know that it got lumped into the whole "low-carb" phase but if you read the book it actually makes a lot of sense and it's a lot more about healthy eating than low-carbs. Anyway, the hardest part about it to me was it required a lot of cooking, but perhaps that would work alright for you. Once I got to a weight I was happy with I began to work out more often and allowed myself splurges here and there and I've actually been able to maintain a weight I'm very happy with for over a year now.

Posted by: amanda | Jun 23, 2006 9:33:34 AM

"Way to alienate your audience."

Steph is probably fat like a lot of us are fat, where we are maybe between 15-30 overweight. No, that's not a lot, and many other Americans are far fatter. But that doesn't mean we cannot make an effort to lose that 15-30 pounds. You can't take her desire to get to her ideal weight personally.

Posted by: JoeyB | Jun 23, 2006 9:47:30 AM

Stephanie, have you ever considered giving up Gluten? I've read about your, um diarrhea issues and that was totally me. Anyway, I gave up Gluten a few years ago, I've never felt better AND it's totally helped me (at 5'4") stay in the 120ish range instead of the 130ish range. No diet - just staying away from all the processed food that contains gluten. It wasn't easy to do and I don't know if it's the right answer for you, but thought it was worth mentioning.

Posted by: Anon | Jun 23, 2006 9:49:00 AM

Above all be healthy. Therefore do what you must do to feel and be the healthiest. There are many good ideas here, but only you know what fits for you. If you feel like you're in your best state of health at 125, get there.

If you're anything like me, a monastic existence wherein I deprive myself of the things I love most (certain foods, preparing dinners for loved ones, etc.) is a path of major resistance and therefore doomed to failure.

The only way, at age 34, I can make all of this work it to get my ass into the gym every single day, or failing that, 5-6 days a week. And on those days I am not in the gym, I keep moving. Five or six days a week seems like a lot, but it's a priority. My health is at the top of my list.

Trey goes with me (he is 41); we do it together. He does his weight training thing for his massive sprinter legs and I do my one hour on the elliptical for my body-conscious thing. I get on the machine with a good book, dial it up to some insane number and 60 minutes blaze by.

Afterwards I feel good, have a kooky endorphin rush and frankly can eat what I want. But once the body starts to feel so good, I am so much less likely to pollute it. Something about that type of exercise makes you feel very good about what you've done for your health.

Put down the fork and get moving. You deserve to feel wonderful!

Your Neighbor in San Antonio

Posted by: I Have A Linus Dog Too | Jun 23, 2006 10:45:31 AM

First of all, I do agree with Jay, I saw you on the Food Channel thing, and thought you were quite chubby. I'd read your posts about your love handles, but was ill-prepared for how big they were in reality. I figured you were upset about a few vanity pounds, but you really are rotund. And now your posts indicate you've gained even more weight! The genetic excuse is bullshit, it's called willpower. At one point in my life I tipped the scales at 195-and I was with a guy who was 170. His pants became my "fat pants"-- and then I outgrew those! I decided to do something about it. Not whine about it, not blog about how I was going to do something productive about it one day... and then stuff cookies and expensive cheeses in my face. I went to the gym and gave up junk.

I love junk, and giving it up was like giving up my blanky when I started sleeping over at my childhood friend's houses. Curling up with something gooey and chocolatey after a hard day at work was my comfort, my security. I hate exercise, so my 5 day a week workout schedule is a thorn in my ass. But my ass looks great, I'm at 125 pounds, and have only fluctuated maybe 3-5 pounds in 12 years! It's called discipline folks. Most of my family are "pleasantly plump", and they just accept that. "We have shitty metabolisms! It's genetic, there's nothing we can do! Look at Grandpa Skip, look at Aunt Lisa! We're doomed!" That's the family mantra, as they all indulge in high fat, high sugar, high carb fare. My sisters tell me how jealous they are, and how much they hate me every time we get together. But they have no discipline, pure and simple. It's a trade off: They get chocolate whenever they want, I can throw on a bikini and look fabulous whenever I want. (I indulge on holidays only, and it makes the junk that more decadent and exciting.)

Face it, you CANNOT have your cake and eat it too. It's a fact of life. You pick one: Eat what you want, or have a great body. I choose a great body, because at 195 I ate what I wanted, but felt miserable all day. At 125 I feel awesome, healthy, and gorgeous, and I ride the cravings out, feeling a bit picked on and abused once or twice a day, for 5-15 minutes tops. I distract myself, I get naked and admire my body, whatever it takes. When you're truly sick of being rotund, you'll bite the bullet, quit talking the talk and start walking the walk.

I also agree with the individual who chastized you about your use of the term "Nazi". I've been tuning into your blog for over a year, and though you claim to be an ethnic hodge-podge, there are statements you have made that made me cringe with their callous, ignorant bigotry. You emphasize that you write these posts for yourself, and that may have been the case in the beginning. But now you have a loyal fan base, and with that comes a certain responsibility. You must take into account all of the diverse people who may happen upon your blog.

Most of your posts are awesome, but when you throw out one of those terms you never know who is just tuning in THAT DAY. You could offend a person who had the potential to be a lifelong reader of your blog, a lifetime purchaser of your memoirs, a person with friends who could become Stephanoholics as well. Are you that confident in your success that you can afford to alienate those people? If you think you can, than you ARE as conceited and self-absorbed as some of your detractors seem to think.

All that said, I'm not a detractor (as much as this comment may indicate otherwise). As I said before, I've been reading quite faithfully for over a year, and I Tivo'd your Food Channel appearance. Even rotund (and I'm sorry, you are on the chunky side) your personality shone through. And despite what a select few might say, you're posts are (for the most part) insightful, well-written, and appear to be from the heart. Just remember that, even for a person who makes their personal life an open book, there are some thoughts (like ignorant terms) that should be kept to oneself, and one's immediate circle of friends and family. Seinfeld made it clear that the main cast were ignorant, the very last episode glorified that. Their lack of social correctness was an integral part of the show! Don't copy that, because it doesn't work for you. You're clever, but not funny enough to pull that off without offending. And you are a real person, not a tv character. I admire the persona you've built for yourself on this blog, but I do hate the elitist facet of it.

Posted by: M | Jun 23, 2006 11:41:36 AM

Me and my nazi friends are deeply offended by your writing, Stephanie and plan on burning your book at our next KKK meeting which is held at the library at the same time as my Weight Watchers meeting which you obviously need because you are rotund and I have every right to tell you that. Maybe my thoughts should be kept to myself?

Posted by: heilguy | Jun 23, 2006 12:15:20 PM

Thanks, Rommel, for the much-needed levity.

Posted by: I Have A Linus Dog Too | Jun 23, 2006 12:19:28 PM

I hate to say it, Stephanie, but your story turns more and more "Brittney Spears" each day...woah is me, I have this cushy life, and yet I find stuff to complain about...

Posted by: lli | Jun 23, 2006 12:23:09 PM

When I pointed out that Stephanie used terms like "Nazi" a little too liberally, I didn't think it was a hanging offense. Just a little lazy, that's all, especially for someone as clearly sensitive as she is. I'm sure she didn't mean to offend and it's a bit much to throw around claims of bigotry, ignorant or not.

That said, M, I don't agree with the reasoning that some terms shouldn't be used because someone reading might be offended. They shouldn't be read because they are offensive. Period. Whether or not someone will be offended is irrelevant. If there are no black people around to be offended by black jokes, does that make the jokes less wrong? If you don't know any Jewish people, does that make it okay to make Jewish jokes?

I just pointed it out because I think it's similar like using words like "retarded" or "gay" to signify things that are messed up. To use a term like Nazi to describe someone who is tough about something takes the power out of that word bit by bit, day by day. Like I said, Nazis were the real Nazis.

Counting your calories or watching your weight doesn't make you a Nazi. It just makes you a little tough on yourself. Like I said before, there are tons of words that would convey the message more creatively: taskmaster, enforcer, drill sergeant, nanny, etc.

Posted by: b | Jun 23, 2006 12:34:50 PM

Heilguy (uber, uber clever moniker, BTW) it is not actual Nazis that I am worried about. I like, millions of other people around the world, come from an ethnicity that was persecuted and murdered by Nazis. Contrary to uneducated belief, Jewish people were not the only people to be effected by Hitler's horrors. My grandmother lost all of her siblings during those tragic times. As a child my brother cavalierly used the term around her, and she educated us about our heritage, making sure we understood how serious a word Nazi is. She informed us that the word is like a knife in her heart, that it conjures up the awful events she still has nightmares about.

I think the only people who get a pass to use that word in a humorous sense are those directly affected by the movement. Although my grandmother was, I was not (although I did miss the opportunity to meet and know those great- aunts and uncles). So I avoid the word. Similarly, the terms gay and retard. A guy at my job just got fired for using the word "retard" while teasing another co-worker. A female employee who was in the break room at the time was deeply hurt, because her child is severly retarded. You might say, "Well how could he have known?" It doesn't matter whether a hateful word directly affects those present, it's the fact that the hurtful epithet was uttered aloud, period. I also think that African Americans who toss the n-word around are ignorant...but even more so the young white males who use it to greet each other. And you don't have to be black (or Hispanic, or Jewish, or Polish) to be offended by racial jokes/slurs.

In a world full of hate, I think we could all try to be a bit more sensitive to our fellow man.

As for referring to Stephanie being rotund, well she's the one that put it out there! If at least a third of a persons blog is devoted to their ongoing battle of the bulge, I imagine they should expect comments on their weight. Nobody sugar-coated how fat I was at the time...WHEN I put myself out there for discussion on the matter, which wasn't very often.

So to Stephanie, I admire you're inner strength and thick skin for allowing your personal struggles/demons to be examined, scrutinized, and commented on. I also believe that you are a sweet person who would not intentionally hurt another. Sometimes people are simply not aware of the effect a single word can have, just as my brother wasn't when we were kids. I don't think the guy at work should have been fired, just instructed to think before he speaks.

Even though your blog is from the heart, it reaches a lot of people, so a wee bit of thought about sensitive words wouldn't hurt.

Posted by: M | Jun 23, 2006 12:52:23 PM

M-you may have a "great" body, but your insides are hideous. Okay you have worked on the outside, but your personality is awful so try working on that, although there are some things that can't be fixed with trips to the gym so you are out of luck.

Posted by: noname | Jun 23, 2006 12:53:19 PM

I can commiserate with you anytime about your food cravings. I too am a "lover of all things sweet and salty" and I find it hard to pass up anything that is in front of me. Like, just yesterday, I was about to go out to lunch but there was pizza in the office and I couldn't help but have 2 pieces.....

Posted by: Mini | Jun 23, 2006 1:03:24 PM

Thank you for this post, Stephanie. It really hit home for me....BELIEVE me.

Posted by: Mini | Jun 23, 2006 1:04:38 PM

Wow, I see why so many of the commentors do so on a daily basis (and several times a day)! It's terribly exciting to see your statements in print on such a popular blog, and to have others comment on your comments. I've commented very infrequently in the past, although I read every post. Perhaps that will change!

Dear No Name: My name is Marta. M is my nickname, because quite frankly it's about the only shortened version of my name friends and family could come up with! Marta really doesn't lend itself to nicknames...

I stand by all of my statements and opinions because they are just that- my opinions. Just like everyone else who comments on this blog, just like Stephanie herself. A part of me is excited that l'il old me could inspire such a strong reaction from another person, after all: I don't have a book deal or a popular blog. The other part of me could give a rat's ass what a person who hasn't the confidence to put their identity behind their thoughts thinks about me. My personal circle knows the real me, and accepts and loves me, opinions and all! Just as I suspect Stephanie could give a f**k what I think. Exciting things will continue to unfold for her on a daily basis whether I (Marta) approve of each and every one of her posts or not.

By putting my opinion out there, I understood that there would be those who didn't agree/don't appreciate my particular comments, just as I imagine Stephanie understands that by posting this blog there will be those who don't always "get her" either. But at least I'm not spouting BS under the guise of "no name" or "Anon".

Posted by: Marta | Jun 23, 2006 2:20:36 PM

"M" said,

"I think we could all try to be a bit more sensitive to our fellow man."

and

"A wee bit of thought about sensitive words wouldn't hurt."

Screw the snickerdoodles; the irony's the thing that's delicious.

Posted by: Sallie | Jun 23, 2006 2:32:05 PM

Hey Kim, I have never commented about individuals who make ridiculous statements but you've compelled me to do so. If you are handicapped or on medication then clearly your health and mental well-being are your primary concerns. I don't think anyone was trying to alienate you over a situation you probably don't have any control over.

Posted by: Amanda | Jun 23, 2006 2:58:19 PM

Excellent point, Sallie. And as for the Krispy Kremes--here in Winston-Salem, NC (corporate headquarters) they are perfection, albeit sweet!

Posted by: In the South | Jun 23, 2006 3:05:55 PM

Wouldn't it be fun to anesthesize "M," hook her up to a high calorie gooey chocolate drip, leave her to expand back to 195 and leave her naked in front of a mirror to "admire her body" when we wake her?

Posted by: lin | Jun 23, 2006 3:11:38 PM

In the South...
I agree with you 100% about the Krispy Kreme's! I'm from the Triad but am living in DC for the summer. There's a KK right around the corner and they don't begin to compare to the ones at home.

Posted by: EK | Jun 23, 2006 3:32:36 PM

No fair! "M" used up all the words.

Posted by: Barbara E. | Jun 23, 2006 3:48:48 PM

actually M, my name is really NoName my parents got lazy, kinda like yours when they were raising you and clearly never told you when enough is enough and stop spouting your ridiculous opinions.

Posted by: noname | Jun 23, 2006 4:14:59 PM

Nice one Sallie! I thought the exact same thing. Oh M, poor you to argue so vehemently with so much flaw. There's nothing more depressing than mere potential.

Posted by: Lisa | Jun 23, 2006 4:36:50 PM

I'm fascinated with the comments Stephanie receives. And the irony of some comments as well. I really just have to ask, M: why would you spend so much time writing about yourself and then call someone else elitist on their blog? Wouldnt it just be easier to go read a different blog? I'm really not trying to be mean to you, I just HAVE to know what makes a person like you tick? Do YOU see the irony in what you wrote, or are you just still too proud of yourself to notice?

Stephanie, I like your writing. I don't comment often, and you and I may not even have much in common. But I ENJOY your writing. Pull the good stuff in, laugh at the rest. That's what I'm doing.

Posted by: Julie | Jun 23, 2006 5:09:07 PM

i didn't mean to set off such a firestorm! there really wasn't any need for anyone to insult stephanie's weight. to chastise someone for being mean and elitist and then call that person rotund when she's a normal 30-year-old woman...maybe the pot should look up the kettle's phone number.

i just hope someone who usually picks such great words to put down can pick even better ones in the future.

looking forward to the book.

Posted by: b | Jun 23, 2006 5:27:03 PM

You know, I just hope you will reach the weight that makes you feel best and I think you are just beautiful. Chubby, rotund, love handles, come on, people. Look at the face of this chick, not to mention her hair! Good luck!

Posted by: MCC | Jun 23, 2006 6:02:47 PM

Ok, this is too much. I've never met another Marta in my life. Two weeks ago a Marta enrolled in my class, and now this one on Stephanie's blog! (Hope it's not the same one.) The class I teach is Intro Pilates. I'm also a certified aerobics instructor, and I have a decent background in nutrition. To say that a person's weight is all up to the level of willpower they possess is completely bogus. Genetics play a HUGE part in the whole thing! I have women come to me all the time insisting they've tried every diet and exercise plan under the sun! They've heard that Pilates is the new wonder workout. They're hoping my class is a magic wand. The sad truth? There is no such thing when it comes to weight loss. There are people who are genetically pre-disposed to struggle with the extra pounds all of their lives, even if they attempt to STARVE themselves, which is the worse thing they can do. That will only cause their body to store fat more aggressively. That M is guilty of the same ignorance she accuses Stephanie of!
I've looked at Stephanie's photos, and she's gorgeous. I don't think she needs to lose weight at all, unless it's that important to her. People come in all shapes and sizes, that's what makes the world exciting. Everyone isn't model skinny, and who says that's the best way to look anyways? In my class I tell everyone that health is the most important thing. If you're healthy, the number on the scale is secondary, even thirdary (is that a word? Stephanie, you're the writer, let me know! :) I agree with Julie, M (I prefer to call her that, I'm still upset that we share the same name) is guilty of all the things she accused Stephanie of: ignorance, elitist behavior, offensive posting, etc. My ancestors were not "directly affected by Hitler" but if you review your WWII history, the whole world came pretty close to getting screwed. And the post was about dieting, not racism! Take a chill pill!
Goodness, I guess Marta's do have something in common- dreadfully long posts! I'm sorry about that, I just think Stephanie is da bomb, and for somebody to spend as much time as what's her name (LOL) did on this innocuous post, well I'm not mad at her, I just feel sorry for her and hope she gets some help. Keep up the super cool posts Stephanie, we love you! If you're ever in the Midwest, I'll hook you up with a free class-not that you need it.

Posted by: Believe it or not: Another Marta! | Jun 23, 2006 7:33:16 PM

I want to apologize for my comments, not to any of the other commenters, but to Stephanie herself. I have just discovered that she is the classiest chick in the world, and I am now a complete Stephanoholic. I don't apologize for having my own opinions, just for making uninformed observations. I now stand corrected. Thank you again, Stephanie.

Posted by: M | Jun 23, 2006 7:56:11 PM

JDate? WTF. Why wait? There's always WeighDate.

Posted by: Clifford | Jun 23, 2006 9:42:07 PM

yea too much weight for a 5'5' girl....let's call it middle age spread
wait till the big M and watch it blow

Posted by: leslie | Jun 23, 2006 10:13:58 PM

No, it isn't totally about will-power or discipline. I am sold that there are other factors at play- chemistry, genetics, etc. One thing isn't responsible.

Btw, off topic but when/what is the scoop on the Food Network appearence? I missed this.

Posted by: Christine | Jun 23, 2006 11:58:10 PM

Gawd, what a spectacle! It's taking so much willpower for me not to jump into the fray.

I just wanted to say I can totally relate to your post, Miss Stephanie. Lifetime member of WW since age 11, veteran of many other diets. I've gained and lost so much weight (in increments of 5 to 30 pounds) over the years that I'm actually starting to figure some things out. There's some truth in what Marta said about discipline, but I don't believe you have to give up the things you love to eat, you just change your relationship to them. It's a gradual process--you get to know yourself better, and you change little by little, and it's a lot of two steps forward, one step back (or three steps back, or whatever). That's normal.

The meetings worked for me, but then my MOTHER was driving me there each week. Lacking such adult supervision now, I'm doing an online program (to go from 145 to 135). Two weeks in, I'm down four pounds--wahoo! It's so much easier, and just as effective, at least for me. Writing everything down in the li'l online food diary is a crazy kind of magic that helps me eat better with little effort, a freaking miracle! And you don't have to drive all over town, or be disappointed in yourself if you can't drag your ass to a meeting some week. Just go to your computer and it's all right there. It's actually kind of addictive.

Everybody seemed so adamant about the meetings, I just had to get a cheer in for the online approach. Whatever you do, good luck to you--and to everybody here. It's hard work being a woman, figuring out the self-love/self-hate thing. Don't be too hard on yourselves, girls.

Posted by: GraceMarie | Jun 24, 2006 3:49:19 AM

Any diet will work if you stick with it - my advice is to find one you can do for life. For me, that is Weight Watchers. I lost 65 lbs. on WW and work for them as both a meeting leader and receptionist.

Like any group (sorority/fraternity, church, book club, etc.), group activities are only as good as the people involved make them. As a WW member I attended meetings in two states with 3 different leaders, all of which were fun and informative. If you find yourself in a meeting you do not like, change meetings. I use WW eTools and love it! I have know many members who have done very well online. Whether you go to a meeting or do it online, the key is to keep at it. As I tell my members, "keep doing the right things and you will get the right result".

I am sure you know this already but WW does not allow members who are pregnant to be on the plan or women who are nursing. That said, you'll find lots of help online on the message boards for pregnant "on-hold" members.

I am confident that if you approach WW like you do writing, you will be just as successful in weight loss as in your career.

Posted by: Ray | Jun 24, 2006 10:45:36 AM

I find this site helpful:
http://www.fitday.com/WebFit/Index.html

It lets you track your diet and exercise.

Posted by: Torrie | Jun 24, 2006 1:26:17 PM

Good luck with WW. it gave me an eating disorder for several years and got me obsessing about "points" all the time. I stopped going to the ww meetings when I caught myself bingeing on "low fat" chocolate bars that were sold at the meeting. By the way, I don't think you need to lose weight in the first place, in my opinion you are AMAZING and BEAUTIFUL looking at your pictures! And you have a man who loves you just the way you are - that's great!

Posted by: vivian | Jun 24, 2006 2:29:38 PM

good for you for not getting into krispy kremes but instead falling for an authentic local bakery of your adopted city. don't sweat the weight gain. you have soooo much amazing stuff going on in your life right now. Enjoy it all. Have a cookie, and then go play tennis in the morning before it gets too hot. Come back inside, have an iced roibos tea and write something spectacular. that's livin.

Lisa

Posted by: Lisa | Jun 24, 2006 3:07:56 PM

as a woman approaches 40 there is something delicously appealing about cushion for the pushing.

like the 20 something y.o. is appealing as her tight butt and perky breasts have a youthful look to them.

as middle age sets in and your inner beauty of your wisdom and wit carry you the fat-ish ass and smidgen of belly has a certain eroticness
of its own.

my bit of unasked for advice is quit thinking like a 20 something year old and grow up and face the coming celluite!

many mature men find it amusing to see aging women desperately trying to reclaim their youth. it clearly shows a lack of security.

Posted by: dingler | Jun 24, 2006 7:13:40 PM

wtf @ the comments here,hahaha

like really.....

Posted by: Lani | Jun 24, 2006 7:40:32 PM

Thank you. Cher's "...Song for the Lonely..." WW barf track's back in my head. Snap out of it!

Posted by: jovannaMA | Jun 24, 2006 11:25:20 PM

PLEASE POST YOUR COMMENT IN "SUGGESTIONS"

Posted by: jen | Jun 25, 2006 12:21:54 AM

Loved the Elle article. Can't wait for the book. WW...i'm not one to need it now but who knows.

Posted by: Pinky | Jun 25, 2006 2:35:47 AM

Anyone else get the feeling that "M" is still 195 lbs?

Posted by: Ingrid | Jun 25, 2006 9:00:49 PM

At the same time that I don't want to say that you have a "responsibility" to your readers because you're a semi-public figure, in a sense I think it's a bit of a disappointment to read that 5'5" and 143 is considered too large to fit into "fat jeans." I think many of us understand and sympathize with the desire to lose weight, whether you want to lose 10 or 100 lbs. But the likeable redhead is fast turning into a vapid example of Hollywood vanity. And that, Stephanie, is the biggest disappointment of all.

Posted by: anon | Jun 25, 2006 10:20:30 PM

My weight fluctuates between 125 and 150 which sounds a lot like oyu. I feel your pain, sister. It sucks and takes more discipline than i'd like to have sometimes. I know it has less to do with societal norms or expectations and mostly to just feel good about yourself, daily movements and looking in the mirror. Thank you for writing this.

Posted by: Rachel | Jun 25, 2006 11:39:04 PM

"many mature men find it amusing to see aging women desperately trying to reclaim their youth. it clearly shows a lack of security."

This mature man disagrees. I refuse to go quietly into the long goodnight, I will fight like hell to stay a kid, and I applaud the efforts of those that do. Maybe Steph is not trying to reclaim her youth, but rather she's trying to reclaim her future. And maybe that lack of security is simply an attempt to be the best all-around person that she can be.

From the comments in here, you'd think that someone trying to improve themselves is some sort of atrocity.

Posted by: JoeyB | Jun 26, 2006 11:12:55 AM

Stephanie quick post something new so we can all stop bickering.

I am not for nor against M but, to everyone who commented on her comment how ridiculous. To so completely chastise and judge someone based on one comment is judgmental and closed-minded. I believe any form of weight loss takes determination and a new mindset. M, sounds very proud of herself for doing something no one in her family has the determination to do and perhaps she thought being hard on Stephanie would whip her into shape, literally and figuratively. Let's all be so quick to completely judge someones personality based on one action or thought.

Posted by: Amanda | Jun 26, 2006 12:39:13 PM

I'm glad I wasn't around all weekend for this "M" debacle.

Posted by: Manic Mom | Jun 26, 2006 5:15:23 PM

Honey, please don't lose 20 pounds. You're just lovely. I'm 5'6", I weigh 153. I can eat anything and that's what I weight. It's wear my body wants to be. You read the stats and think I'm huge, but I'm not- I'm just normal. You are lovely. You'd be such a waif at 123.

Posted by: Mela | Jul 15, 2006 8:14:08 PM

I joined Weight Watchers in February and weighed in at 156.4. Like you, I'm 5'5 and happy to tell you that I now weigh 120 lbs. I went from a size 14 to a size 6 and my body fat is 20 percent. Weight Watchers changed my life, my self image, and helped me regain my self respect. In addition to Weight Watchers I also lift weights at home to a video tape by Fitness Made Simple, which looks really cheesy, but it works. I also live in Austin and go to meetings on Saturday at 11:00 near Target in Southwest Austin. I'm not sure if it is the same location or not, but my WW leader, Pam Wood is amazing. Good luck in weight loss journey and becoming a fit and healthy person. Kim

Posted by: Kim | Jul 18, 2006 4:44:59 PM

Ahh... here is that post! I just spent the last hour, sifting through your archives, trying to remember the name of this bakery in Austin. Trying to count back, since I remembered that you were barely pregnant, or something like that, during this time. I am somewhat new to Austin, and still trying to find my way around. I was comfortable heading to my fertility expert, until he broke up with me recently, saying that I am far enough along to go to a regular ob-gyn on my own. And now this 26-year-old has to feel comfortable driving a maniac drive to St. Davids. Austin... I love it, and am constantly told that "anyone can fit in here." But, sometimes I wonder if I ever will. I am loving exploring it though- my favorite restaurant now being Saba Blue Water on 4th. Have you had their Lobster and Brie Empanadas? Heaven, I tell you... Heaven. We should meet up one day. I have ten days left of my first trimester, and I am sorely in need of friends who understand that while I love being pregnant, that is not the DEFINITION of me. Sorry... just venting.

Posted by: Andria | Apr 11, 2007 1:36:46 PM

yes i agree this play is magnificent i especially enjoyed the part where pistachio nwhipped out his big fat cock.
would anybody be interested in putting on this play in my back garden?
FREE LEMONADE FOR ALL PARTICIPANTS!

thanks
xxxx

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